Finally!!! I finally decided to update my post! I stopped for awhile, since I have been significantly busy! But at least I have alot to write about now!
First up, CHANGE! So many changes!!! Oakley is now going with her dad 50/50. Which is so hard. She went for the first time starting this new schedule on monday. It was awkward getting up in the morning without having to get her ready and without having to worry about her in the morning. It made my day feel empty! But, I am very excited for her to have an opportunity to have a dad around (: Hopefully he takes it for what it is, and seizes the opportunity. I think with him taking her so much, I'm going to try and go to school. It's about time I do something with my life.
Oakley also started getting the rest of her teeth, which is pure torture. The poor girl can't do anything without being in pain. I feel so horrible for her. I don't how to help her, which is the ultimate heart break. Its definitely one of those things where I'd like to take the pain for her!!
Next, Even though I'm on my own, I know I'm not alone. Some silly boy captivated me, and stole every last bit of what was left of my heart. I know the circumstances are weird, and difficult, and everyone thinks it will fail. But to truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this. &It's so scary. I'm terrified. But all I know is I miss him when something good happens because he is who i want to share it with. I miss him when something is troubling me because he is the one who understands me so well. I miss him when I laugh and cry because he is the on who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I simply feel obligated to give it a chance. I've never felt that way before. It's pure madness, and I love it!
That's all for now. As always, thanks for reading! <3
